Ok, I have realised that I reallly cannot mix or hang around with Indians, at all. And it's not that I think of myself as an atas Indian or anything, I'm really proud to be an indian! It's just that for most of my whole school life I have been the only Indian in my class. That means that most of my closest and bestest friends have been chinese. Also I'm comfortable with Chinese and the way they are more than I am with Indians. Being the only person in tamil class has not been much of a help either. They're just...different. I cannot adapt easily.
Take for example, last saturday when I went with my tamil class to the 75th anniversary of Tamil Murasu. First of all, all and I mean ALL of the girls were wearing make-up. That has never been a problem with my other race-d friends. So just about when I thought like as if I looked like I had just woken up next to them, there was the whole Indian slang thing. Now that is really something I am NOT comfortable with and I just didn't even want to speak at all for fear of people thinking that I was trying to be non-Indian and angmo-ish. When the real reason is I'm just not used to it!
I really hope it gets better, because I don't know what I'm gonna do when Vaanavil and the new influx of J1s come in.
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